I Am Ready

In one week from today I will be an official college graduate. I never though the day would come nor did I think I would be ready. Am I ready? I can't decide. A large part of me is ready to indulge in finding a job. The other part of me is scared, sad and not ready. My life has not exactly taken the path of least resistance. But am I really ready for the challenge of rejections, constant waitress or worse never finding a job that I love? I am frighten of never finding a job or finding a job that ultimately makes me unhappy. Everyone faces those risks, but I am just not sure that I am up to the challenge. However, I will persevere because that's what I do. I can equate this challenge to running. Exercising and running in particular is very important to me, I look at finding a job like finishing a run. At various times during my runs I might be feeling on top of the world (like I can run another five miles) and others like the end of the world is coming (like going uphill into the wind while a boring song plays), in the end I finish. I am finishing college and will find a job. I might not like the first one or even the second but I am determined to find one that makes me happy at the end of the day.

Thank You Pearl Jam

Thank you to my dear friend Andrew Menan for starting this.......


Top 20 Reason's Pearl Jam has influenced my life

20. Listening to Ten for the first time....think I heard Jeremy on Q102
19. Spent my high school years listening to crappy pop band but always coming back to PJ for good music
18. Purchasing No Code at Chester County Music Company (probably with money I earned "working" at Ice Line)
17. Listening to PJ while working at Ice Line....Cliff didn't approve
16. Spent the entire summer listening to No Code, having endless discussions with Andrew about No Code while in Avalon "dating" Chris Mavromates
15. Falling in love with "In my tree" therefore listening to it over and over and over again
14. Going to see PJ with Andrew and my brother and YES i was screaming how hot Eddie was and still is
13. Finally getting our mothers (Judy & Laurie) to attend a concert that wasn't from a 1970's band.....we were so cool and I totally forgot about Peter R. interview :)
12. Being in FL somewhere with my mom and matt and going into a record store and buying 3 live versions of PJ-They all rocked!
11. 2000-Going to Pittsburgh and finding that 2 of my 7 roommates had a love for PJ like me!
10. Saw PJ in Pittsburgh after only being at for 5 days
9. Eddie stopping the show to allow a woman with a sign "WASH" to come on stage. She had been to over a dozen shows with the sign
He brought her on stage and played it to her-I wished to be that person
8. Listening to RVM while running a half marathon
7. Hours spent listening to PJ instead of doing HW
6. Joining the 10 Club
5. Connecting to "Just Breathe"
4. Going to see PJ with my brother on his birthday while the Phillies were in the world series
3. The wonderful moments in life that I can directly connect to PJ's music
2. The feeling I get with I listen to their music
1. All the memories I have created not only because of the music and the band but because I cherish the people who have helped shaped those memories.

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I Find it Hard to Say

Today is a miserable day in PA, there is misty wet rain and lots of wind. I'm anticipation of graduating I attended a job fair. Honestly, it was a bit terrifying. I prepared my resume, dressed appropriately and my husband sent me reassuring text messages. However, when I arrived I felt nervous and anxious. I waited in a lime green leather chair watching all the people file into Sykes Ballroom before summing courage to enter. One of my biggest fears is that I will be managed or interviewed by someone younger than me and more qualified. Can I say this will feel humbling? Finally, I swallowed the giant lump of pride in my throat and approached the sign-in table. A nice older gentleman handed me a orange folder with a list of employers, asked me to put on a name tag and wished me luck! Before I handed out a few resumes, I took a deep breath and surveyed the room. There were companies I recognized, ones I had no interest in and most I was barely qualified to speak with. In the end I handed out only two resumes. At first I left feeling like a failure, due to the little connection I felt to the event, but after a few hours of reflection I realized this was an exercise. This event was only one of many uncomfortable places that will be part of my future in search of a job. A big part of me wants to just say "oh well, I don't really need to search for a job, one will come to me and in the mean time I will just waitress....." Bad attitude, the number one reason I decided to torture myself and finally get my degree was to GET OUT of the relentless and unforgiving restaurant business. So, with a small event behind me I am more determined to find a job. This might be a long process but I plan to enjoy the journey in order to find something I love.

First Post

Well I had the desire to write a blog for many years, I am finally getting the courage to share my thoughts, recipes and updates with the blog community.

So without much further ado............

Like many people I love school but hate the bureaucracy of group projects. Currently, I am experiencing two very lazy groups in two different classes. Why do teachers feel that group projects somehow simulate "real life" situations? If that were so then most of my members would be fired. I keep chanting to myself less than 8 weeks!